July 30, 2008

show me

"Show me old video footage of me doing things to remind me about how I spoke, walked, and gestured."

One of Jill Taylor's "forty things"

I didn't experience this exactly the same way—I'm not really into home
movies or video. But I really had a craving early in my recovery, and I still do, to get at books, CDs, old notebooks and papers, gadgets, and toys that could help me remember things I did and ways I expressed myself. All these objects helped me rebuild my sense of self. I think a big theme for me has been reclaiming myself, a lot of which was lost to me in my stroke. I need my past; I wish I felt that people around me understood that and honored it more.